Faithfulness · Writing

I Have Nothing Good to Say

nothing good to say

This past winter, I started thinking about next steps in getting my book published and about how writers need to have social media platforms upon which to be followed. Starting ones for myself sounded less than appealing on a number of levels. For one, I update social media platforms for the national leadership group that I work for, and I find it exhausting to try to keep up with it. Trying to upkeep yet another set of platforms for my writer self seemed even more exhausting [clearly I am not a millennial who has four or five different Instagram accounts – where do you find the time, people??].

But on another level, it felt self-seeking to create accounts for people to follow – artificial almost, to think that I was anyone of significance that rated a page to be “liked.” I always felt that once you were well-known, then you earned a page like that, and that if I started one now, I would be oozing presumption in every direction. Who am I to think that I have profound thoughts that need to be quoted? Too many times I sit at my computer screen and think the very title of this blog post – I have nothing good to say.

It is the truth. On my own, I really don’t have anything good to say.

But God has a whole lot of good things to say – and for some reason I don’t understand, He has granted me the gift of writing some of them down.

And to say no to pursuing that gift would be disobedient – the equivalent of the man hiding his talents in Jesus’ parable (Luke 19:11-27). We are also told in 1 Peter 4:10, “As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace.”

God’s grace comes to us in many different means, and He gives us gifts to be those means to other people. If we are not stewarding our gifts well, then we are denying grace to believers around us – and not serving the body of Christ.

Too many times in the past, I would get anxious right before posting a blog post because I feared what people would think of me. I was looking to my writing to find my identity and loving the praise of man more than the One who gave me the gift. What I needed to do was repent of this way of looking at my writing, and instead look at it as a gift to be developed and through which to serve God, regardless of what people thought of me.

I’ve had a blog post get over 10,000 reads. And I’ve had a blog post get 10 reads. In both of those times, I had to find my identity in Christ, not in how many people were reading my blog – because my words are not my own. They come from the greatest Author of all time – God Himself.

So when I finally decided to create social media platforms for myself to generate a larger reading audience, it was not because I wanted more people to like me and admire my work. Rather, it was because I have a goal in mind of sharing an important message in my book, and those platforms just happen to be the 21st-century means of working toward that goal.

I pray that as I take these steps that God would continually keep me humble before Him and not focus on numbers, comments, or little red hearts. I pray that I would be a faithful steward, lingering longer over the Word and prayer than over online newsfeeds. I pray that my words, however messy they might sometimes feel, would not be a reflection of me, but of our Creator.

Because He always has something good to say.

May we ever be ready to receive it.

 

And if you’re so inclined to follow me on those platforms, you can find me on Facebook at Lydia Lee and on Instagram at @lydiakinnewriter. Thank you for all of your support! It’s more generous than I could hope for.

 

Photo by Patrick Fore on Unsplash. 

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